Dear my beautiful self,
I have let you down. I have willingly allowed you to place yourself in a situation that caused you nothing but harm. I let you hurt yourself. For that, I have failed you. I apologize. I allowed you to be weakened by lies and to have faith in deceit. I'm sorry. You innocently fell in love with some one who wasn't ready to catch you. I didn't protect you. I'm sorry for allowing you to hear broken promises constantly to believe in them everytime. I'm sorry for causing you to cry and to be sad at times when you should be floating and happy. I should have been stronger for you. I should have built you a tougher wall for protection. While you begged for outside love, I should have stopped you. I should have showered you with self love and limited the endurance of unnecessary pain. I should not have allowed you to offer yourself to a receiver knowing that he wasn't ready for such a delicate and precious gift. I'm sorry that you had to beg for some one to love you just to be left in the end.
So today, I'll make it up to you. I will tell you that you are beautiful especially when you doubt it. I will glorify your intelligence and prove to you that you are smart. I will stop you from waiting and hoping that this guy will call. I will spend my time improving your self love and self trust. I will stop you from thinking about and looking for the guy to come back. I will teach how to let him go. I will offer you distractions of varying types. I will help patch you up and brighten your eyes again. But, first you must learn to forgive. Forgive yourself, forgive me, forgive him and you will grow. You are amazing, you are powerful, you are loving, you are deserving of the utmost respect and care this world has to offer. You are valuable. Don't waste it on anger, on hate, on longing for something that doesn't exist. Next you must learn acceptance. Not all people belong in your life. Let them go. Let him go. He lied and ppl lie when they are weak. You are strong. Lastly, you will learn courage. Move on. Try something new. Be around open minded excited ppl. Surround yourself with peace.
I love you.
From Self
