Ugh,
First let me say, I'm not in a bad space. I'm not angry, miserable, or sad. I'm ok. I'm honestly able to say I'm okay. The ugh represents my mind. My thoughts are overwhelming me; causing me to feel a bit of anxiety in my chest. I don't like it. I feel like my head is filled with helium and gravel. What a combination!? The peace and freedom that I felt is slowly being smoldered. I feel a bit lost, I feel a bit uncomfortable. Aha.. I'm uncomfortable. The problem is, I don't have a plan. I don't have clear goals that I'm working to acheive. So what do I do? I need to write it out. I need to meditate, brainstorm, and focus. DAMN IT.. That word focus is a killer. How the hell do I focus with an over active brain? I write. I write. I write and I write until it all makes sense. I want so much, I want to do so much, and I want to be apart of a movement. How do I do accomplish this? I need self-discipline.. UGH!! A big fat UGH! Discipline sucks. Self Discipline and Focusing go hand in hand. They are partners in crime. They are the siamese twins that work together to get you to SUCCESS. That's where I want to be. I want to be on the island of spiritual, emotional, and mental success. I need transportation. Well, I better get to writing or else I will end up dying from an overactive brain filled with want, ideas, thoughts, and distraction!
