Sprinkling you with words that confuse
Beauty to the eye
Pain to the heart
Sprinkling you with words that blind
Celebrating your hurt
Hiding behind my wounds
Sprinkling you with words that bruise
Loving you at a distance
Hating you up close
I'm sorry I didn't love you the way you deserved.
To You,
My lost love.
My broken-hearted companion.
The most beautiful being I've ever be blessed with, I must say "I'm sorry".
Dear my former beloved,
You loved me and I didn't see it. I'm sorry. You wanted me and I didn't feel it. I'm sorry. Not knowing the depth of your heart, the willingness of your soul, I hurt you in a way that words can't be told. I'm sorry. I thought I loved you but I didn't show it or maybe I didn't mean it. For deceitfulness, I'm sorry. I manipulated you, had you thinking you were doing wrong. I made you think you had a winner when all in all I was a loser. I lost you. I put you through hell to make you think you were getting to Heaven. It wasn't true. I didn't know how to love. I didn't love me. I couldn't love you. I didn't know how to love what you represented. Trusting you? Trusting myself? Trusting the present and trusting the future. As I sit and reflect, no excuses. No reasons why, just the purest sincerist apology. You are a wonderful being and I was lucky to have a chance to experience you in your unalloyed form. I should have wiped your tears when you cried. I should have soothed your body when you hurt. I should have helped you up when you were falling. I'm sorry.
