Nseo

Dear Mr. "not so enlightened one",

I figured I'd enlighten you on the difference between my intellect and my emotion. My flesh has created my intellect. Intellect dwells in my brain. Life altering experiences and thought provoking education all combined to make an all too powerful brain. "You are smart." Smart? What is that? Yes, I know a lot. But knowing a lot doesn't mean a thing without passion and desire. "You have a strong mind." A strong mind? Let me tell you what this strong mind can do. I develop ideas that have no benefit to me. I solve difficult puzzles so other's can have ease. I have mulled over personal plan after plan with thoughts that continue to contradict each other because I know TOO MANY FACTS! Resisting the risk-taking factor in life for fear of failure. I've stopped myself from my heart's desires.

Ahhh... My precious heart's desires. Let me take you there. My heart was created by my spirit. My emotions tend to live in a place where the complete opposite of seeing is believing manifests... Well believing is creating. I believe therefore it is, whether I have seen it or not. I believe in unconditional love. I believe in a God that created us. I believe in the power of forgiveness. Now, this brings me to the point of my letter. I forgive you!

My intellect told me not to trust you because your actions don't coincide with your words. My emotions told me to love you because regardless of what you show, you are a being worth loving. My intellect told me you would be a waste of time and money. My emotions told me that it would be okay because the lesson in the unseen is far greater than the knowledge I already possess. My intellect created a plan to harm you. My emotions halted me in my tracks. Together they worked for me to forgive you and Lord knows now I do. My forgiveness isn't for you but it is for the mercy I ask of God. My intellect told me to leave and my emotions told me to love you at a distance. I'm able to do this because you've been forgiven. Be Blessed.

Yours Truly,
Ms. Reality Check

Goodbye

"Dear world,

Let me be clear, your judgmental opinions and thoughts of me  no longer matter. Only God can judge me and he does it kindly. Your passive aggressive subliminal comments will no longer get a direct response from me. If you encourage me to sin or be a mediocre 'Christian' using the excuse that God forgives, I will no longer trust you. Trust is a gift that a weak man shouldn't be given. I have made the decision to no longer support your hopes and your dreams, while mine are placed on the back burner. God instilled a passion in me to fulfill his wishes. If being around you causes my spirit to change from peace, happiness, and gratitude to irritation, anger, and misery, I will no longer waste my precious valuable time. Time is something I don't have an infinite amount of and I can't get it back. I've stressed alone in the dark for far too long only to be saved from my own deception by God's word. There is power in the test and there is power in the testimony. I don't apology for leaving behind the devil's vessels, but you are forgiven. You have proven not good for me and my journey here while I'm living. Just a sparkle of faith and some info for your knowledge, remember there is always a silver lining. Matthews 27:3-5."

Dante's Inferno

Tidal Waves

Igniting my inner flame

Missing the target

Omniscient Omni potent

Tsunami over my sanity

Hurricane season

Yielding heart to disaster

 

What is this that I’m feeling? Craziness. The rain is pouring and flooding out the flowers. Full-bloom to a complete halt. Drowning, where is the refuge? Seeds planted. Seedlings springing, flood flood flood over powering growth. But, I love the rain. The fresh scent in the air. The coolness on my face. The promise of hydration for us. For US, the moisture becomes tears of pain. Tears of frustration. Tears, hydration, liquid prayers. Pleading with God to keep us here. Keep us together. Keep us weathering this storm. Protect us from a natural disaster. Nature, life.. Science disowned us, leaving us, no us, leaving me fed up! Floating away with the tidal waves.

Stop Watch

Moving Moving Moving
Walking Jogging Sprinting
Destination Ahead
Nothing in sight
Vision lost
Heart rate accelerated
Breathing rapidly
Everything is blurry
Light Headed Dizziness
Darkness
Fading,Falling, Stopping
...........

I once was on a mission to NOWHERE. I was getting there fast. I thought I had it all until one day it was taken away and I realized it was nothing. Nothing of real value because I was surviving without it. I took life in the moment for granted and I was living in the future. Nothing that was around me was enough, for I kept wanting more and more and more. Dissatisfied, Overwhelmed, Miserable, and Sad... Life as I knew it STOPPED! It ended. I flatlined and I died...